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Luna was a wonderful cat. She was brave and kind and curious. She watched over me when I was sick, comforted me when I was sad, made me laugh on difficult days. She was never scared of vacuums. She got jealous during my therapy sessions. She liked jazz music. When the pandemic started she was happy I was home every day. She witnessed fires, earthquakes, tornado warnings, and blizzards. She moved with me twice, first across town and then across the country. Routinely she would yell at me that it was time for bed. She insisted on grooming my arms after I showered. Almost every night she would sleep curled up against me.

It's only been two days and I miss her so much.

Went home for the weekend. Saw my old school, which was hosting an auction, my old advisor and one of my oldest longtime friends, who was a friend by necessity. We're both gradutating soon. We graduated high school together, that high school. Well, we were there for six years, it was a middle-high school.

So I got a little teary.

Then I went to see my old theater group. Who are basically a second-family, but more than that. They've seen me grow up, and now I'm seeing the younger members grow up. Boys shooting up like weeds, girls I knew as tiny children getting boobs bigger than mine. I'm graduating college in a few weeks. I've spent ten years connected to these people in one way or another.

It's ... odd. I cried, a lot, at the play, and then at people. I got hugged a lot. People asked how I was doing, my plans, were shocked about my impending graduation and gave high-fives and insisted I couldn't be graduating already because it couldn't have been four years already. A guy I consider practically a big brother hugged me so hard my back cracked. An actor I really respect whom I've known for about ten years told me he was so pleased to see me again. People reminded me that I can always come back to them. One of my mentors told me he was proud of me. I started crying.

Overwhelmed with emotions and now drained. Watching Shakespeare stuff to recharge.

Crying in front of your professor and a few other students after class: D:
Your professor telling you that she cries all the time while working her awesome high-profile main job (not as a professor) and that it's fine: (:
Getting helpful advice for future and jobs from professor: : D
Professor telling you to please email her for advice and help at any time, really: : D
Being hit by too many emotions in response to someone being nice while you are crying, and starting to cry again in the elevator back to your dorm room: D:

I'm gonna cry, watch some Brooklyn Nine-Nine, and try and get at least a little jogging in place into my schedule before bed.

I'm just wrung out. Friday can't come soon enough. I have plans to get groceries then. Grocery shopping is so soothing.

First, the comment I want to post on tgwtg.com, but either my internet is weird or it's not letting me post for some reason:

( Trying to be civil )

Here's what I typed as I watched, taking things very personally and pausing to sob in a rather frightening manner. Seriously, a lot of people on my floor were concerned about me when I went to go get my kettle from the Common Room after I wrote this

( Taking things too personally )

Thoughts after all of that:

( What now? )

Well, now we're all crying. Well, I'm crying. AUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!

D: D: D: D:

Not fair, Doug, not fair. At all.

It's a good thing he isn't here right now, or I'd punch him. Well, I'd probably just cry at him, but I'd think about punching him

( Trigger warnings: mentions of self-harm, talk of deathfics, mention of medically-assisted suicide. )

On a lighter note, Vixy and Tony covered "Red Right Hand" by Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds! And that is just plain AWESOME!

Current Music: Red Right Hand - Vixy and Tony

Yesterday was utterly fantastic ... until I misplaced by notepad and had a nervous breakdown.
Seriously, I've NEVER done something like that before, but I started half-hyperventalating and whimpering and shaking and clutching at my hair and almost-crying and digging through trashbags weakly and ... it was not a pretty sight. When someone found them I broke down even harder and SOBBED onto his shoulder.
Yesterday evening, two hours after I got said notes back, I was STILL shaking internally. I tried to type up this stuff, but then my 103-and-a-half-year-old relation's chair was delivered and I fell apart all over again. I have NEVER cried like that before, EVER EVER EVER. I made these terrifying wailing noises and ... *still scared of self*
Thankfully some of my relations were around, seeing as we carpooled to the auction yesterday, so I wasn't alone, but still ... *shivers*

Last night/this morning I had a TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE dream involving SKIN and ... yeah, I won't say any more, but it was AWFUL. *feels sick with self*

In other news:
I helped my mother deliver a wedding cake on Saturday (the groom was British) and I lent the groom a pen! *swoons*
That-Guy was at the auction. He didn't see me break down, and he looked DAMN FINE in a white-button-down shirt! *giggles* I was envious of the grapes he was eating, is that strange? ...

Anyhoodle, this week DW comes back, and I plan on finishing off that literary magazine! *takes deep breath*

Current Mood: *shaken*
Current Location: Atop a purple swively chair
Current Music: NPR

My friend left today. He’s not coming back. I got wicked depressed. I gave him a paper crane and a hug, and I watched him get into his car and drive off. I felt like I’d just watched the Ninth Doctor regenerate into Ten.

I didn’t love him … but he was one of my best friends. I didn’t know his name until a few weeks ago. We’d really only just started a friendship, watching Doctor Who and Torchwood spoofs and talking about Captain Jack.

So then I went and climbed the HUGE tree and cried a bit. Not just for my friend, but all the friends who have left or moved or I’ve left … they could have filled up the whole tree.

Depressing stuff … then I watched this movie: http://youtube.com/watch?v=AZ-lJpL2oVg and felt a bit better. I also got a hug from my other friend (aimiesan.) She just recently discovered that Captain Jack is a sex-machine, and this makes her very happy and eager to watch Torchwood indeed. Hopefully I’ll have someone to talk to again … *sigh*

I’m also about two weeks behind on slash … ergh … I’m so glad it’s Friday!

On the slash-front, been working on a Heroes/Doctor Who/Torchwood crossover thing for the past few days. The Petrellis and the Bennets (and Monica and Micah, for later explained reasons) end up on the TARDIS in the post-apocalyptic future, but Claude the Doctor isn’t too keen on Noah staying under his ‘roof’ … then Jack and Ianto get pulled into the mess for reasons I’m still forming …

And the WEREWOLF!Fic … ah, well, I’ve got a lot written, as I’ve been working on it for months, but I’ve run into a few snags.

1) How did Molly get from the town she and Mohinder lived in to an isolated village (several days travel away) in the woods, where Mohinder and Bane (Sylar) find her and some other people about to be burned?

2) Why does Peter run away with Claude (a werewolf) to the werewolves’ camp? What does Nathan do to spur this drastic action? (Remember, werewolves don’t take too kindly to humans, especially humans who are related to Nathan.)

People who help me out get nice mentions in my Thoughts!

This fic is going to be dedicated to ladywilde80, btw, and probably posted on Halloween …

Current Mood: depressed
Current Location: Atop a purple swively chair.
Current Music: Panic! At The Disco (can't fit the title in here)

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