Crying over a Sherlock Fic
Feb. 3rd, 2012 04:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aunt_zeldaSo, I've cried over fanfics before. We all have. Some of them are just so sad you can't help it. Sometimes a little tearing up, sometimes a lot of sniffling, sometimes a couple tears ... and sometimes lots of sobbing like you just felt a piece of your soul die and yet you were grateful for the experience because DAYUM that was some fantastic writing!
Most of the ones I've cried over were deathfics, scattered over various fandoms. I remember some particularly good Doctor/Master fics, a haunting Heroes fic where Sylar and Mohinder were old indeed, and some fics from the Treehouse that hit me right THERE and make me break me down. Self-harm in a fic is another thing that'll usually make me cry, especially if it's a friend finding out that their friend is self-harming. I hate that I can recognize what those scars mean when I see them on someone in real life, it makes me so worried for my friends, and how I can't just hug them and make it all better.
So, Sherlock. I've been lurking in the fandom, mostly the Kink Meme, and peering at the tumblrs in confusion, trying to figure out yet another social network and avoiding getting an account. One of the tumblrs is the Sherlock Fandom Rules. It's a good one, check it out.
Then I saw this post today ... and I decided to check out the fic the secret references. Like a fool.NEVER DECIDE TO JUST 'CHECK OUT' AN INFAMOUS FANFIC WHAT DID YOU JOIN THE WORLD OF FANDOM YESTERDAY ZELDA? *SLAPS SELF UPSIDE THE HEAD*
I was curious. I wanted to see what it was. At first I thought I was doing ok ... sure I was tearing up a little but I'd expected that, right, I could handle this, it was really well written and so good and ... and ... and ...
And then I was SOBBING. Like, so much crying I couldn't see my laptop screen anymore. This was intense crying. I hurt in my soul. It dredged up all these feelings about my Nana, who died almost two years ago, and Sir Terry Pratchett and what he's said about choosing to die, and ... I just HURT in my soul and there was so much crying ...
Yeah. That was a damn good fic. Just be warned, if you're going to read it, that it's going to hurt you emotionally. Don't just read it on a whim.
Most of the ones I've cried over were deathfics, scattered over various fandoms. I remember some particularly good Doctor/Master fics, a haunting Heroes fic where Sylar and Mohinder were old indeed, and some fics from the Treehouse that hit me right THERE and make me break me down. Self-harm in a fic is another thing that'll usually make me cry, especially if it's a friend finding out that their friend is self-harming. I hate that I can recognize what those scars mean when I see them on someone in real life, it makes me so worried for my friends, and how I can't just hug them and make it all better.
So, Sherlock. I've been lurking in the fandom, mostly the Kink Meme, and peering at the tumblrs in confusion, trying to figure out yet another social network and avoiding getting an account. One of the tumblrs is the Sherlock Fandom Rules. It's a good one, check it out.
Then I saw this post today ... and I decided to check out the fic the secret references. Like a fool.
I was curious. I wanted to see what it was. At first I thought I was doing ok ... sure I was tearing up a little but I'd expected that, right, I could handle this, it was really well written and so good and ... and ... and ...
And then I was SOBBING. Like, so much crying I couldn't see my laptop screen anymore. This was intense crying. I hurt in my soul. It dredged up all these feelings about my Nana, who died almost two years ago, and Sir Terry Pratchett and what he's said about choosing to die, and ... I just HURT in my soul and there was so much crying ...
Yeah. That was a damn good fic. Just be warned, if you're going to read it, that it's going to hurt you emotionally. Don't just read it on a whim.
I need to go watch some cutesy tv, or listen to a comforting audiobook. Or something.
On a lighter note, Vixy and Tony covered "Red Right Hand" by Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds! And that is just plain AWESOME!
